Lost in time

 I don't know if I didn't hear these things are if they were not said. Maybe I just didn't listen. But I feel like nobody mentioned that every moment would feel so much more exciting and I would be brought on so many new adventures, after having a child. 

Though I think really what happened was it has made me appreciate every second I spend with her. 

When Alessia was born, I thought of all the times I heard people speak of sleepless nights and how tired they were or how much they had to do. I thought how can you ever complain about another day as its like wishing one day of their life away and one less day you will spend together. It slows you down it has made me feel like I've never felt before. It's allowed me to get in touch with my sensitive side again, which I think I had almost shut down trying to fulfill my goals and ambitions. 

I have never enjoyed going to do grocery shops so much. I love going out with my straw basket and looking through the vegetables and watching Alessia take it all in; every moment spent with her is priceless. She will do something new, say something new, wave at someone or blow a kiss and I can think of nothing only how amazing she is. Having a baby makes you practice mindfulness even if you don’t want to. What I love most is when she Grabs out and kiss me, she literally kills me with kisses. I know there will come a stage that I won't get so many so I cherish every one. I breathe in the moment as though it is the last, as I do not take for granted this time I am spending with her. Never have I lost myself in time like I do with Alessia. We go to Barnes and nobles and I watch her running around playing and minutes turn into hours and it's like time has been robbed. As I am so content standing and watching her play. Yesterday, she was sure the toy dog was real, she was nervous at first, getting into my arms.  Slowly she ventured over, Waving and making dog noises and patting the dog. Calling it and rubbing its nose. I could have watched for hours.

Our when last week she woke me up at night as she wanted to kiss me, I usually am not a fan of people waking me. But this was such an incredible moment; I drank it in and enjoyed every second. I love when she wants something and starts kissing me as she knows that once she does that my heart melts and my brain goes to mush and I forget what is what. Lying in bed watching her sleep, just feels so amazing.

Having Alessia is the biggest adventure I have gone on so far. So many twists’s and turns. Every day brings something new, and every day you feel even more in love. For example, this morning the heat was so incredibly hot, our usual two hours spent  in the playground turned into twenty minutes. Instead Alessia friends invited us to play. I found it such a privilege to be invited into someone's home. Though since having Alessia it has been a common occurrence. It’s acceptable to have people call at 8am or 9, which is great for me, as I love doing things in the morning. I chatted with their mom while Alessia played with all their lovely toys I was making more friends, learning new things and it was so enjoyable. I was even offered a job.

 Every morning we get up Alessia has a whole new adventure set out for me. She has led me on a path I never would have taken, and I love it. Where hours feel like minutes and weeks feel like seconds. Parenthood is a whirlwind nothing I ever could have imagined. I used to look at people on play dates, and spending all their time doing child friendly things at such a slow pace and I must admit I thought it was boring, not exciting enough. I can truly say it's anything but. No one mentioned when it is your own child it is very different it feels different. You have just as many adventures just different types Alessia is teaching me some of the most valuable life lessons I will ever learn, what's more, she is doing it while making it fun. 

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