i no longer make decisions that are best for me

As I get ready for yet another adventure. Another plane and numerous trains. I contemplate, am I doing exactly what I want to do. The answer is no, of course I'm not, but I'm 

Doing what is best for Alessia and me. What is best for me on my own unfortunately isn't what is best for  everyone. I find people constantly questioning my actions, but nobody ever really knows why any one person is doing any one thing, so it is best to leave people do what suits them and make their own mistakes. 

I loved Christmas with my gorgeous daughter, it was lovely watching her open presents And enjoy the company and the music.

 I think Dancing was her favorite thing to do as she would hand my mum

Her Yuke and say more more, or demand my parents play another duet on guitar  and Yuke, 

She loved Christmas dinner as it consisted of two of her favorite things prawns and calamari and smoked mackerel pate. 

Of course, when you have a child your nights are simpliar you don't party till six am well, 

I don't anyway, as I couldn't function getting up after half hour sleep. Or I just don't go out as many evenings. You take turns and you only stay out a couple of hours. Alessia still gets awful upset if she wakes and I'm not there so I always go home if she wakes. Theses are my decisions with my reasons. They are not right or wrong, they are just personal to me. My choices are not solely mine at this stage of my life. I can't decide to go out every night as I like to socialize and that's what makes me feel good. I can go out early or bring Alessia asleep in the buggy or in my case run home  when when needed if I manage to get a baby sitter.

 But life chances with a child, you are no longer your top priority your child is. So life decisions becoming confusing as you're making them too

Suit someone else while also trying not to leave yourself out of the equation. So when people wonder and question your actions, they are not always as simple as black and white. As the days draw closer to going back to the Amalfi coast, I am

So happy at how well I practice mindfulness day by day and am thankful that I've enjoyed my daughters life rather than question it, while thinking about what is best for us both.

FREEFUN SKERRIES IRELAND CHRISTMAS 2016